(It's late and I'm not editing this, so please be prepared for the worst.)
People are constantly asking me where I'm going to college, if I've made my choice yet, if I'm excited, etc. It's not that I mind, it's just that I have no idea. I'm not even sure if I applied to the right schools. I am the worst decision maker ever, which makes this even more difficult. So, anyone want to tell me where I should go? Right now it's either University of Illinois, Mount Holyoke, or going to NOVA and deciding later. NOVA would be my choice, except that it would shock everyone and probably make them look down upon me, at least a little. There's nothing wrong with going to community college, it's just not what "people like me" usually do.
Everyone who I've talked to has said that Mount Holyoke sounds perfect for me, which I can understand. One would think that I would be more suited to a smaller, quieter atmosphere. I just do not know what I want. And I don't know if I want to pursue theatre, for which Illinois would be better, even if it's crazy huge. It also has a fairly large party system, and I do not party. Which isn't to say that I don't like it. There are a ton of facilities, and options outside of that. With so many people, there have to be other people who share my interests.
I am not good at making friends. That's another factor. I can't talk to people very well unless I've known them for at least a year, and even then I'm awkward and make stupid jokes. I'm expecting loneliness; the only question is how long. I don't know if a bigger school or a smaller one would be better for that.
People keep saying I should go with my gut, but I don't know what my gut is saying. I could live at either school and be fine. I just want to buy a freaking college sweatshirt and have a solid answer I can give people.
Amanda,
ReplyDelete1.) Write me back.
2.) Make the decision that will make you happiest, disregarding the challenges of making friends.
3.) Just because a school is large, and known for being a party school, doesn't mean that you need to party every single night.... unless you truly want to. My dad tells me that he went to a school known as a party school... and he and the other real cool kids stayed in the library the majority of the time, and studied.
4.) No one can decide for you what you really want to pursue. Are there options to double major? Then, at least, you can jam one foot in the theatre door, and the other can be saving world Manatees (or whatever else you want to do).
I'm trying to figure out where I want to go next year, and I know it isn't easy.
-Sam